Saturday, November 26, 2011

Love? Fickle Bitch or Sweet Lady

Yesterday I read "That Boy" by Jillian Dodd and I thought to myself, Love is so wonderful and lasting. Jaydn found love with Phillip and Danny found Love with Lori and I was so happy. I thought about finding "that boy" myself one day and how great it would be to find someone who would love me as much as Phillip loved Jaydn or as much as Lori loved Danny.
Today, I watched "The Sorcerer and the White Snake" - The Jet Li movie. It was wonderful. I cried so hard when it ended. After I finished "That Boy" by Jillian Dodd I had tears of Joy and Happiness, but with this movie, it was tears of unrequited Love. I thought about Fahai; who did he have to love, maybe his God , but who else? what about earthly Love? Neng shen too didn't have anyone to Love, Qingqing saw what Love did to her sister Susu and said she didn't want to love anyone the way that Susu loved XiXuan, but who does? Their Love was so destructive and Susu was so stupid, she jeopardized their love by destroying the Jinshan temple and being so hard headed.
I then thought to myself, which Love do I believe in, in this time and day? It's be great to have the boy next door and it's be great to have the Demon from the the next realm (not literally), but who's to say that it would end well? Why would anyone want to subject themselves to something so fickle; something that could end so heartwarmingly well (That Boy) or something that could end with so much despair (The sorcerer and the White Snake)? or is it best to not experience it at all?
Would it be better to have loved and lost than to not love at all. Susu said she never regretted loving XiXuan, but where did that leave them both, him waiting for her forever and she just outside his reach? or would it be better to just take a chance on Love and hope that you can control it so that you have your very own "That Boy" in the end?